#65 | Thoughts
Hello everybody on my blog right now.
It's been more than a month since my last blog post on 13 October 2017
and that post was an update on my internship.
In this post, I'll be talking more about my thoughts lately and
updating my readers on what's happening in my life.
Pt.1 - Updates
⟶ For this year, I flew to Thailand, Bangkok. My family actually wanted to fly to Japan but were afraid that the N.Korea might fly missiles over and what not. So we flew somewhere nearer and familiar: Bangkok. We explored and went to the same few places but took a different airline there and stayed in a different hotel.
*I'll be writing/reviewing the airline and hotel we took/stayed in soon!
2. Internship.
⟶ It has been nearly 3 months since internship started. The children I bonded with during the 2.5 months have ended their nursery year and will be moving on to kindergarten 1 next year; 2018. I'll definitely miss them even though I'll still be seeing them again next year during morning assembly.
⟶ Side note. I have a rough idea of who will be in the nursery class next year. And they are so so adorable omg. Can't wait to interact and hopefully bond with them before internship ends in March.
⟶ The past 3 months has been an exciting yet tiring journey for me. I gained new knowledge during the past 3 months. I'll definitely miss the concert rehearsals, concert nights and class parties. Those were the most tiring yet fun times I had with the children. Seeing them able to dance each and every step of the song made me tear up with joy because I saw how they were like during rehearsals.
3. Holiday.
⟶ My year-end holiday started way earlier than many other interns because I'm attached to a Kindergarten while they're attached to a Childcare Centre. Therefore, my holiday period is the same as the children's. Thus, making it longer compared to interns working at childcare centers.
⟶ Though my holidays have started, there is much to be done such as submission of lesson plans, preparing for next year etc. (I haven't started on that yet so please pray for me T_T) Even though there are so many things to be done during the holidays, all I can think about is going out shopping... (Why am I like this...)
⟶ Definitely going to make sure that my lesson plan is submitted before I even go shopping.
⮙Pretty much sums up what has been happening in my life the past few months. ⮙
Pt.2 - Thoughts.
A few weeks back, I was scrolling through twitter and came upon this tweet talking about Social Anxiety. It talked about how a person with Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) has many negative thoughts and is afraid of being in public with many unfamiliar people around them. While I was reading it, I kept thinking and asking myself whether I have SAD. In the end, I kinda just brushed it off as me being an introvert and shy.
However, a couple days back, I went to research more about SAD and took a test to see whether I have SAD. Turns out, I might actually be suffering from it based on the test I took. Hence, I went to research more on it. (Refer to below images to see what I found.)
^Adapted from Anxiety and Depression Association of America
^Adapted from Social Anxiety Association
^Adapted from Social Anxiety Institute
After researching and reading, I've come to a conclusion that I may have Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD). But then again, online tests are not 100% accurate and I might be overreacting to the information I found. So I thought of seeking professional help. Since I'm already going to seek professional help, might as well check if I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) right?
Initially, I thought that OCD was just habit of a person to keep organized and tidy. Never did I expect that it would serious. (Refer to images below to see what I found)
^Adapted from Anxiety BC
I went to seek professional help the day after I suspected I might be suffering from the 2 disorders mentioned above. And I kinda expected the results, seeing how I am alone in public with many unfamiliar people and how I keep thinking of the bacteria inside the sponge I use to wash my plates.
It didn't come to a surprise that I'm actually suffering from the 2 disorders mentioned. However, I decided to take the news positively.
Suffering from SAD means that I would dislike going out alone, in public which also means that there are lesser chances of me getting harmed or doing foolish things. Whereas, suffering from OCD means that I will be neat, organized and clean since I would have to wash/sanitize my hands after touching something.
"Train your mind to see the good in every situation"
That's all for now.
Till the next blog entry!
- The Bunny Pal 🐰
