#84 | End of 2.2
I'm finally back after months of not blogging ๐
Semester 2.2 has taken a toll on me
forgive me for not updating this tiny space like I used to ใ
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Now that semester 2.2 is done and dusted,
I have decided to continue blogging ๐
p.s there are currently 3 unfinished posts sitting in my drafts... let's hope I
stop procrastinating and finish those posts before the start of a new semester.
Semester 2.2., where do I even begin ๐ช
Three Words: A Fucking Mess
I never want to experience this semester and this mess again, ever. Not many people know this but, during this semester, I felt so left out within my own group of friends and I didn't even want to talk to anybody either. My social anxiety got worst as well.
I never really went in-depth about what happened that caused all these. I was planning to write a post about how and what I was feeling during this period but decided against it because who tf is gonna care right?
Anyways, just a summary
I guess it all happened in mid-September 2019? Person "A" came into my life abruptly because they had no one to befriend with (well, I mean, who would want to befriend them after all the shit they did ?) As time passed, it felt like I felt that I wasn't needed or even wanted by my own group of friends after person A joined us. I had thoughts of speaking to my friends about it but didn't because I didn't want to look like an attention seeker.
Wrong move
That was when Person A fucked with my entire life ๐and the worst part? Most of my friends are on their side, siding them ☺️ nice right? They are still siding them even after seeing the amount of trouble they've caused to everyone in the class. Till today, they are still "liking" & "commenting" on person A's ig posts... I don't get it? Do they really like person A as a friend or are they doing so because they pity them? I pray it is the latter.
I never spoke to Person A ever since a few months back and since then, my interactions with my own friends have reduced as well. I don't really enjoy talking to most of them that much anymore since I always felt that they were judging me and whatever I said? Besides, they have their own clique & group chats within the clique itself ๐คท๐ป♀️doesn't matter whether I interact with them or not.
I've also stopped buying my friends (except 3 of them) gifts/souvenirs when I travel overseas during the last few months of 2019. (reminder to self, complete the remaining travel posts) I just didn't feel appreciated for doing so? It got to the point where I felt that I'm expected to buy gifts/souvenirs for them whenever I travel.
PSA: You're not entitled to those gifts/souvenirs (unless you're my best friend/someone who didn't backstab me ๐, which you did) I bought those gifts/souvenirs from overseas because I was being nice.
One reason why I drifted apart from the people in the clique was when I realized that, during the first 3 semesters, they would be really nice to me and initiate the conversation. But, it all stopped during the 4 semesters (2.2). This was also when I stopped buying them gifts/souvenirs from overseas. It just goes to show that they were only friends because of the benefits. which is kinda sad if you ask me.
I guess another reason why I drifted apart from those people was because I just didn't feel like we're on the same page anymore?
storytime pt.2
We were given group assignments to complete during the December holidays. Prior to my Tokyo trip, my group (including those people), met up to discuss what we planned on doing and allocated roles to each member so that the assignment could be completed over the holidays. Before we ended the group meeting, everyone was 100% clear on what they had to do for the assignment. I stayed up all night before my flight to Tokyo to complete my part of the assignment, thinking that the other members would complete theirs over the holiday.
"Last edit was on December 17, 2019" - Google Docs
I expected at least 1 person to do their part of the assignment. When I opened the document the day after I landed back in SG, I saw the timestamp and fucking blew up. The LAST edit was made by me the night BEFORE I went for my holiday. Kinda "confronted" them about it and one of them (who is in the clique), told me they needed to catch up on their mental health over the holiday.Apparently, my mental health is not important and I don't have to take care of it.
Hardly spoke to any of them after that because I don't have the energy to do so, I'm too tired. Too tired to deal with the bullshit they keep giving me for every assignment. This was probably also why I started to distance myself away from those people.
But, they think it's because I want better grades.
Sorry, but the MAIN reason why I distanced myself away from you and stopped doing group assignments with you was because I don't want to give myself unnecessary stress anymore. Why should I work with people who put in only 20% of hard work (and then I have to make up for it by giving my 200% effort) when I can work with people who put in 100% (sometimes even more) of hard work?
Lesser problems & stress for me, better grades. It sounds like a good deal.
Thank God I'm not in the same class as them next semester.
Can you imagine how awkward & stressful it'll be? FOR ME.
Now that Semester 2.2 is completed, it's officially the holiday period again!! ๐ฅณI initially planned to catch up on my dramas (To be specific, Thai & Korean dramas). Browsed around and I couldn't find ANY Thai dramas that appealed to me so I moved on to Korean dramas. Started it off with Goblin followed by Hotel del Luna. After that, I couldn't find any more Korean dramas that were interesting to me so I moved on to Chinese dramas a.k.a Meteor Garden ๐๐ฅฐ
Let's talk about Meteor Garden first. I know I'm late to the trend (wtv it's called). The first episode actually aired in 2018 and I only watched it in 2020 because I was out of dramas to watch & had nothing better to do. Anyways, there are 49 fucking episodes and nearly half of it was the male & female lead breaking up & patching back again ๐For the last few episodes, I had to fast forward many times because it was starting to annoy me. I just wanted to end that drama.
But can we just talk about the male lead - Dylan Wang???? He was the main reason why I stayed on until the final episode. Not because I wanted to see whether he would end up with "Shan Cai" (We all knew they would) But because he was too good looking for me to stop watching ใ _ใ
Definitely not with this pineapple hairstyle ๐ฉ
But with this hairstyle T_T
/ugly crying/
I cried so much while watching this episode wtf
Hello? Yes, can I just check, where can I find a guy like him in my life?
I totally forgot what I was supposed to type after seeing how handsome Dylan Wang is...
I left Goblin on hold while I started this drama and finished it within 5 days. There are 49 episodes so this means, I watch about 9.5-10 episodes daily. One episode is roughly 40 minutes long which means I spent an average of 6.5 hrs watching Meteor Garden daily for 5 days. As you can see, ladies & gentlemen, I have no life.
^Me after realizing I spent 6.5 hrs daily for 5 days to finish the drama
I continued watching Goblin after finishing 49 episodes of Meteor Garden and it was so good T_T, especially the OSTs. Can they please make a Season 2 ๐ฅบAfter Goblin, I started watching Hotel del Luna, finished it a couple of days back and it was pretty meh honestly ๐
Moving on to the Thai side, to be honest, there wasn't many Thai dramas that appealed to me. Partly because I'm used to a few actors from 2018 already and the newer actors didn't interest me at all so I couldn't find any Thai dramas to watch until recently.
The only Thai drama I started watching in 2020 which I actually like, is 2gether The Series. It's the typical plot - Fake dating -> Actually realizing they have feelings for each other. But I really enjoy watching it because of how flirty and good looking (to me) the main lead is. Now you know what I look for when I pick what dramas to watch.
List of dramas I've watched:
๐Goblin - ๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป
๐Hotel del Luna ๐๐ป
๐Meteor Garden 2018 Remake - ๐๐ป๐๐ป
๐2Wish (Thai Series)
๐Reminders (Thai Series)
๐Theory of Love (Thai Series)
๐Our Skyy (Thai Series)
-If you're planning to watch Meteor Garden, good luck with breaking up & patching back.
List of dramas I'm planning to watch:
๐2gether The Series (Thai Series; airing every Friday)
๐Why R U?
๐Bad Genius (Thai Movie)
๐Crash Landing on You
๐Itaewon Class
๐Moment of Eighteen
๐Her Private Life
This pretty much sums up how I'm going to spend my holidays - Nonstop dramas all day, every day. As you can see, Semester 2.2 really took a toll on me so I totally deserve this break to relax and let go a little before Year 3 begins. Let's hope I take some time out of the dramas to complete the other 2 posts in my drafts before Year 3 begins or even before I fly out this holiday.
